A LIFE OF ROMANCE AND MARRIAGE - IT IS LOVELY TO BE IN LOVE
IT IS LOVELY TO BE IN LOVE
Love, it is a strange thing. We hear about it from childhood, we feel we kind of know what it is, but when we actually , truly fall in love, it is so lovely, so true, so filling you with happiness of such a true kind, wanting to be with your soul mate so badly, and always, it is so unbelievably nice , so new, to you that it is not even perceived as love!
Love has happened and you don’t know it is love!! It is too good to be called anything, to be even shared, what do we say, it is so enigmatic, that no words fit, and you cannot call it anything, you are just happy!!
And it is always, always love at first sight. You see your girl, and it is a shocking feeling, that strange sense of her being like you in a strange way, and then it does not matter, whether she is fair, or dark, whether she is thin, or fat, even old or young, she is just too beautiful and the nicest thing to YOU!
You sit together, and you talk, and you want to talk, you feel it unbearable to separate, you feel so completely relaxed and comfortable only with her, you talk, you sense each other, you are understood in a strange harmony of being , a strange oneness you feel, you want to only be with each other, and it is mutual, you feel so good, both of you, and that is why fights too happen, and the pain too is so good, a pain that is felt because there is longing, and the clearing of the misunderstandings actually makes you realize the depth of love, the pain, oh! The sweet pain deepening the love, making you realize shockingly that there is no getting away from her, that it is life, her, or death, without her. And you accept it as you like to be trapped, oh! The trap, and the prison that is not a prison at all but the greatest freedom you feel, the greatest happiness you get, and who would want to go away from happiness, who would care then about silly put ons, everything melts, it is a surrender!! But it is an elevation too, but you don’t know it, you are simply too happy, and you know it without words!!
Days pass, and the love grows, the pain and the meeting and extreme joy, the pain again and then the joy, again, and then you wonder, what it is!! What is happening to you and slowly you talk about it, the love is not cheap, of course you think about her in physical terms too, but not in a physical sense, but in a wondering sense, and then one day, you hold hands, it happens inevitably, and you had never known how nice and wonderful it can be, you feel now to be hit, by a kind of emotion that seems to have no limits!
You don’t know that that is called by a name- ecstasy! You don’t know it, but you obviously are filled with it, now the love becomes, solemn, steely, kind of violent, and slowly the passion pours forth, you have dirty thoughts, but they are so beautifully and enticingly dirty! Nights are filled with a pain, you want her, in the night, all the night, and you fantasize, you will do this and you will do that, and you sleep, and no sleep comes, nights of insomnia, thinking about how it would be with her, meeting her the next day, the agony and the ecstasy, the swing and the calm and the swing of pain again, you are happy in pain and happiness, both!!
And finally you both know it can’t be stopped, it happens, you accidentally touch, brush against her breasts, one day, or her lips or her cheeks, and you gasp, you are filled with a shocking feeling, so extreme, that you cannot contain it, out of this world and you finally realize, what is love!!
You find secret places, and you are filled with the hunger, the ecstatic union happens again and again, the seal is complete, the intimacy is full to the brim, the oneness is complete, you both have entered a heaven where only 2 can enter, it is an upheaval, all things mundane have been wiped out, you have become too serious, sincere, saintly in soul, passionate in body, muted in love, and sweating and screaming in love making, an unbelievable earthly heavenly happiness found, and chasteness is yours and purity, the body has become a strange instrument to give your soul the highest happiness.
And you are married before you get married, married in soul, mind and heart, and later legally too, obviously, and a new meaning found in life, life lived, anew every day, and days pass, in pure joy, and months, the strangest thing, the love does not get lessened but gets intensified, even the other values surface, there is reason to use reason in work, in life. You release your dreams, you fly, you seem to have got an infinite power to achieve, and you do, you discover joy in life, in love, in work, in living, there is no working for its own sake but working for living in mind and body, the love paves a philosophy without words, you 2 are in heaven on earth, and you know it and you don’t as you need it not!!!
It is lovely to be in love, my dear, is it not?